“Ed Sheeran: The Sum of It All”: 6 heartbreaking revelations from the Disney+ doc

Sheeran's Divide tour, which began in March 2017, broke the record for the biggest, most attended and highest-grossing tour of all time. The world record was previously set by Irish rock band U2, whose 2011 360° tour had a record attendance of 7.3 million. In comparison, Sheeran's tour saw more than 8.5 million people across 43 countries following its conclusion and grossed $736 million, breaking U2's record of $735 million.

At the time, Sheeran took to Instagram to thank his fans and supporters. "Thanks so much for each and every one of you who have come to a show," he wrote. "12 shows left, will never forget it."

"This is his first birthday that he hasn't been here. And this is his first cookout that he hasn't been here. You know, he died six months ago," Sheeran said while recounting Jamal Edwards' 2022 death. "It's still like very very raw. I've never been to a burial. This is the first time that you're there. Someone's singing a hymn, then suddenly, someone hands you a shovel. And then suddenly, you're putting dirt on your mate's grave, and it's very real."

He continued, "And it just feels so weird that he's in amongst loads of people that he didn't know. It's obviously a grave site . . . And it's all just pure sadness. Oh, it's horrible."

Sheeran's close friendship with Edwards — an English music entrepreneur, DJ and founder of the online R&B/Hip-Hop platform SB.TV — helped launch Sheeran's career and contributed to his great success. On Feb. 20, 2022, at the age of 31, Edwards died of a cardiac arrhythmia caused by recreational drugs.

"I had friends in school whose parents passed away when they were like 14," Sheeran recounted in the documentary. "I looked back on it and I'm like, 'That is when you became an adult.' I became an adult recently. But that's when you became an adult because grief instantly ends your youth."

"I feel, like, a lot of times in a kind of chaotic storm where you're just trying to stay level," Sheeran explained. "I hadn't really grown up until I felt grief. Loss, it just took over my life."

A day after Edwards' memorial, Sheeran performed in Warsaw, as part of his ongoing Mathematics tour. While backstage, he spoke about how difficult it was to mourn his friend's death while having to perform:

"Obviously it's good to be distracted and have things, and playing to a crowd, that is great. At one o'clock in the morning, I was at the mural and . . . it's just kind of weird. I was thinking, 'I don't want to cry in front of 78,000 people.' And I found myself really close at times.'"

"I got diagnosed with cancer at the start of the year which was a massive s**tter," Sheeran's wife, Cherry Seaborn said. "It made me massively reflect on our mortality. I would never agree to do anything like this but it made me think, 'Oh if I died, what's people's perception of me? What do you leave behind?'"

She continued, "For Ed, the whole point is he wants to say to people, 'I'm not just this music machine. I'm not just this robot that tries to get No. 1. I'm a father, I'm a son, I'm a friend.' It wasn't until this year when I was like, 'I might die.'"

To cope with the pain, Sheeran said he wrote seven songs in four hours.

"The moment you find out that the worst thing in the world has happened to someone that you truly love with all your heart, you feel like you're drowning and can't get out from under it," Sheeran said.

"And now [the] stage is not his safe place. Or it wasn't," Seaborn said in the documentary. "I've never seen him cry on stage. He doesn't really cry in general. That's really unusual to see him cry. But I just don't think he's had the time to . . . he hasn't had the time to sit with his thoughts. And I can't see when he's gonna have that in the next four years."

Seaborn added that Sheeran overloaded on work to distract himself from his recent hardships, including Jamal's death, Seaborn's cancer diagnosis and his recent court cases.

"It's scary putting out your sort of deepest, darkest thoughts to the world," Sheeran said of his upcoming album, which releases on May 5. "The first half of this year was a very difficult part of the last 30 years of my life. There's an umbrella over that time which is just a bit of a blur.

"It's opening the trapdoor into my soul. For the first time I'm not trying to craft an album people will like, I'm merely putting something out that's honest and true to where I am in my adult life."